In a very short time we /I am welcoming a new season, next to all my roles like daughter, sister, friend, mentor and wife I will add the role to be a mother, to be a parent.
With every season comes an end, followed by a new beginning.
I will miss the times that my husband and I had - just the two of us. Times without me having to share him, to sleep in as long we want on the weekends, to stay up late or go to bed early, to have meals without getting “interrupted”, to learn how to love one another, how to do life together - just him and me.
At the same time I can’t wait to see my husband with our child, and future children. I mean, he will be the best dad that I could have prayed for. I can’t wait for this miracle baby to join us, to make us mom & dad, parents and a family. I can’t wait for all the joy, the laughter, the adventures and memories our baby will bring us. Children are a blessing, a gift from God.
The thoughts and feelings I am going through the last few days, reminded me of the season right before my husband and I got into a relationship. I knew my life was about to be forever changed. Even that was my biggest desire & prayer - I knew I am also letting go of the season being single. And that wasn’t just all bad, lonely and hard, no I had so much fun, deep friendships, girls nights… But I was gladly giving my single life, for this amazing man waiting for me. I never regretted that decision for a moment.
And I know for sure, that the moment I will hold our baby I wouldn’t have it any other way for the rest of my life.
All I am saying to you, is that there is always a good in a goodbye. I am saying allow yourself to process, feel, enjoy, maybe even grief one season coming to an end. Doing that, doesn’t mean you are not loving, looking forward to what’s to come!
Let me know if you can relate to my process, would love to hear your thoughts.